For the past few months, I've been spending my time with her for meals, shopping and etc. In fact, where every moment I spent with her is a moment I really treasure in my life. Since then, I have decided to start praying to God and ask Him for direction whether she is the right one for me. It took me a long time and huge courage to tell her I love her and ask would she be my girl. I have not done this before in my life facing a girl that I really love and to tell her my feeling towards her. Yes. I've done my part and the rest I left it to God to decide. This time I was really serious about this relationship where I asked her to pray together with me and ask God for direction and consider me with His wisdom whether we both are meant to be together in terms of sharing our lives together, to be the other half of life.

OK..I FAILED AGAIN!

My feelings, emotion, life turned upside-down. I was asking why why why and why...I was wishing she will be my girl that I am looking for. In fact, the answer was NO. It took me few days or a week to recover from my bitterness. Though I may not be the one. I will continue to look after her and will be there anytime to provide her needs and care. I would to be the backstage support or other people may call it "guardian angel" to protect her as long as I could. Will not hope for anything to happen but may God's will be done. If we are meant to be together then we will no matter how,what and when.

p/s: seriously the every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure!

Comfort #2

God has not failed you. Through every human indicator may suggest that God is absent from your situation the reality is far from it. The problem is that the full panorama has yet to be seen your complete situation still hasn't been unvieled. Why has God allowed these trials to come into your life ? Its not because he is letting you down rather he is teaching you that he makes all your circumstances work together for your good even the waiting. So dont fret. Hang on to him as tightly as you can trust that he is working out something important. Because when you see what he sees, you are going to love the picture.

God, we know you wont ever let us down. Help us hang on until we can see your answer to our prayers. We know you are faithfully . Amen.

To you a thousand years is like the passing of a day or like a few hours in the night , Psalm 90:4

comfort

God has not allowed one of yr tears to drop to the ground. He caught them all and made them into something beautiful. By all that you have been through, you have been uniquely trained to comfort those who are going through the same thing. You know what it is to hurt as they hurt, fear as they fear and yearn as they yearn. You can show them how to survive and be comforted as you hv been comforted. The tears of yr biggest hurts hv been resoundingly transformed into yr most amazing opportunity for ministry. So today praise God for helping you overcome your trials and console others with the wisdom you hv received.

God, we praise you for turning our biggest defeats into our greatest victories. Thank you for yr marvelous comfort, help us to share it with others. Amen.

They who sow in tears shall reap in joy and singing. Psalm 126:5

I know who holds tomorrow

I don't know about tomorrow; 

I just live from day to day. 

I don't borrow from its sunshine 

For its skies may turn to grey. 

I don't worry o'er the future, 

For I know what Jesus said. 

And today I'll walk beside Him, 

For He knows what is ahead. 

Many things about tomorrow 

I don't seem to understand 

But I know who holds tomorrow 

And I know who holds my hand. 

Every step is getting brighter 

As the golden stairs I climb; 

Every burden's getting lighter, 

Every cloud is silver-lined. 

There the sun is always shining, 

There no tear will dim the eye; 

At the ending of the rainbow 

Where the mountains touch the sky. 

Many things about tomorrow 

I don't seem to understand 

But I know who holds tomorrow 

And I know who holds my hand. 

I don't know about tomorrow; 

It may bring me poverty. 

But the one who feeds the sparrow, 

Is the one who stands by me. 

And the path that is my portion 

May be through the flame or flood; 

But His presence goes before me 

And I'm covered with His blood. 

Many things about tomorrow 

I don't seem to understand 

But I know who holds tomorrow 

And I know who holds my hand...

I GIVE UP!