According to This Momentary Marriage by John Piper, marriage is not mainly about prospering economically e.g. having joint income, joint mortgage loan etc; it is mainly about displaying the covenant-keeping love between Christ and His church. Knowing Christ is more important than making a living. Treasuring Christ is more important than bearing children. However, being pregnant and conceive a child is God's gift to us to all mankind as God has spoken in Genesis 1:28 "...Be fruitful and multiply.. Being united to Christ by faith is a greater source of marital success than per-fect sex and double-income prosperity.

If we make secondary things primary, they cease to be secondary and become idolatrous. They have their place. This is why we often lose focus where it has hindered us in putting God first.

So it is with marriage. It is a momentary gift. It may last a lifetime, or it may be snatched away on the honeymoon. Either way, it is short. If we make secondary things primary, we will be embittered at the sorrows we must face. But if we set our face to make of marriage mainly what Good designed it to be, no sorrows and no calamities can stand in our way. Everyone of them will be, not an obstacles to success, but a way to succeed. The beauty of the covenant-keeping love between Christ and His church shines brightest when nothing but Christ can sustain it.  

I truly agree with what the author said, on top of that, I would like share an illustration or an analogy whereby if both parties walk to be closer with God, then both of them will automatically begin to grow closer to one another and this would be a fulfilling and meaningful one. Remember there were couple of verses taken from Ecclesiastes 4:9-12 saying that "two are better than one, because they have good return for their work. If one falls down, the other can help the other up. But pity anyone who falls and has no one to help him/her up. Also if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how one keep warm alone? Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken". The three strands here meaning being two people and God. Hence if God is at the focal point of your relationship, and you and the other are both moving toward God, consequently both will grow much closer to each other. Isn't it lovely? 

"And over all those virtues put on LOVE which binds them all together in perfect unit". Colossians 3:14

So I was admitted to the hospital due to dengue fever for 6 days. First day in hospital was kinda active walking here and there like a vacation and I even treat it as camp. Didn't know Nelson was admitted as well in the same hospital with same sickness. So was walking here and there in the ward with visitors. The end of the day requested to change room. The second day  was kinda awful, energy all drained, got tired easily. The food was horrible too! I'm thankful to have friends that brought me outside food to filll my stomach. Everyday I was waiting for the blood test result in hopping my platelets count to be stable so that I'm able to discharge without any restrictions. Unfortunately, my blood count drop..drop..and drop.. Not as severe as Nelson till 64. In conclusion, it's not fun at all to stay in hospital. Why? Bored..expensive bill..tiring.. So had good rest at home after discharge from hospital before I get back to work. 

She is one of my dinner mates after my work on Friday night. We had great time together during the dinner table and have been encouraging each other not only in moral support but in spiritual support as well. Time past so quickly that she has to leave Kuala Lumpur and back to Penang. As she is still in the midst of waiting the outcome of the universities offer in Australia and making decision whether or not to stay back in Malaysia to continue her studies, I pray that God to show and lead her the way in according to His will on which university to be enrolled. Ai Lyn..may the Lord continue to show you the path and guide you in all things you do.  May you also to continue to seek His will in all things you do! Take care and God bless! =)

Care group outing to Sg. Lembing was the great one that I ever had. We were able to see God's wonderful creation in this place. How on earth that someone could say all these were created through big bang? They just deny the existence of God. Took one day off just to see these beautiful scenery was well worth! We should do it at least once a year. Reached the cottage almost 11pm. Slept early and got ourselves ready for the journey to see the rainbow waterfall. Tourists commented this place is a beautiful place where we are able to see multiple rainbow at once. We took a 4 wheel to transport us to one point and hike up to the waterfall. Reached the waterfall after a hike at approx 45mins. We could only see one rainbow instead multiple when we reached. Somehow I managed to see two rainbows at the same time and I was in between the rainbow. I see true colours! 

This reminds me Genesis 9:13-17 and it says I have set my rainbow in the clouds, and it will be the sign of the covenant between me and the earth. Whenever I bring clouds over the earth and the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will remember my covenant between me and you and all living creatures of every kind. Never again will the waters become a flood to destroy all life. Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth.” So God said to Noah, “This is the sign of the covenant I have established between me and all life on the earth.”

As it is written, rainbow is symbolise covenant that made between God and mankind. We often doubt God's power. For example, we prayed so hard for the coming exam and study so hard for it. Result coming out in a week or so.. We start to doubt, whether or not God will give us As' or even pass the exam? So where is our faith since we have prayed and trust God will make the ways. Basically this is our human tendency to doubt. It's actually a choice for us to make whether to have faith or not. In fact, we should have faith in Him at all time. He will never fail us, he will never leave you nor forsake you. Be humble and come near to Him and He will come near to you. Be humble before the Lord and He will lift you up! Remember that God Himself through Jesus Christ has fulfilled all the prophecies in the old testament. It's a promise that God will not one anyone to be perished but to have eternal life. The great promise has fulfilled why not our little tiny requests? Wait.. This does not mean that everything we ask God will give. He will only provide to those who ask according to His will. So what is His will? We can't add to God's glory and He doesn't need us. That all is given too us and it is up to Him if want to initiate something in our lives. So when we say, God we want to do Your will. Do you think we are doing something that pleases God? We need to be careful that it is not thinking that God needs us to carry out His plans. In fact, God is the one who initiates the move and speak to us when he wants to use us. Indeed what we should do is to be humble and let Him speaks and works in us. Are we humble enough? Are we there to be still and listen to what He want to say to us? All in all, He is the hope of all the earth, and all of us are rest assure in His great love!

Isn't this picture on the left nice? Coincidently took it with my random shot. How nice to bring another half to be there right? I always thinking of you wherever I go especially these nice and beautiful God's creation. The song by Trademark has this to say, but I believe for you and me, the sun will shine one day. So I'll just play my part and pray you'll have a change of heart. Yes, I write this and I meant it. The early morning of the last day of trip, we went for a climb to panorama hill called 林明山. Thought it was an easy trail and it wasn't. Climb for less than 10 minutes my foot wanted to give up. If I give up easily means I am a looser and have achieve nothing. Therefore, I put myself up and encourage myself that I should not give up easily same as to life and all situations. Perseverance is always the key to success and of course with God's power and strength. Well I made it and to the peak I have conquered in climbing the hill though with many stops and rest. It's truly worth it that through out the whole trip, I learned a lot. You think my chapter just end here? I can tell you that this is only a beginning. 

Have not been updating my blog for quite some time. A blink of eye, one year has coming to an end, where I have been working for almost a year. I was busy with my work since June until mid of August due to peak season of my auditing field. I learned a lot from this peak where I am able to see full picture on the process of auditing. Well, if you would to ask me whether is it time for me to move on to another firm or to another specialisation which is taxation. My answer is not at the moment and will start planning after my second peak so that I am able to learn more such as amalgamation accounts and consolidated accounts. In this field, people come-people go, and this is a norm. Relationship with colleague is just like a nightmare! Why? There is a person who really can't stop to win the conversation, ability, power, knowledge, skills and etc. All said and mentioned are bull and don't make any sense to me. Seriously, God has never fail to put person I dislike for me to dealt with so that I can learn to love thy neighbour as yourself and to love because He first love me. Well, guess I have to bear with this matter and learn to be patience and gentle and create peace.

Does the picture relate to the above writing? No, but I would like to take this opportunity to thank Felicia and AiLyn for getting me this note book as my birthday present. They have been my support in my hunger for God's words. Learnt a lot from them in many aspects and I am looking forward to learn more and to change myself to be a Christian who is able to shine for His glory!

Move on, I am taking Governance, Risk and Ethics P1 this coming December. Been doing my reading and hope can pass this paper without any complications.

What have I learned from the past few months? I would to say in life, whether christian or non-christian, we should stop whining and hold on to gratitude you will be more happy and less stress. Stop grumbling and start to calm yourself down to make peace to one another. Life would be much easier and happier.

p/s: all glory and praise unto to the Lord!

For the past few months, I've been spending my time with her for meals, shopping and etc. In fact, where every moment I spent with her is a moment I really treasure in my life. Since then, I have decided to start praying to God and ask Him for direction whether she is the right one for me. It took me a long time and huge courage to tell her I love her and ask would she be my girl. I have not done this before in my life facing a girl that I really love and to tell her my feeling towards her. Yes. I've done my part and the rest I left it to God to decide. This time I was really serious about this relationship where I asked her to pray together with me and ask God for direction and consider me with His wisdom whether we both are meant to be together in terms of sharing our lives together, to be the other half of life.

OK..I FAILED AGAIN!

My feelings, emotion, life turned upside-down. I was asking why why why and why...I was wishing she will be my girl that I am looking for. In fact, the answer was NO. It took me few days or a week to recover from my bitterness. Though I may not be the one. I will continue to look after her and will be there anytime to provide her needs and care. I would to be the backstage support or other people may call it "guardian angel" to protect her as long as I could. Will not hope for anything to happen but may God's will be done. If we are meant to be together then we will no matter how,what and when.

p/s: seriously the every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure!

Comfort #2

God has not failed you. Through every human indicator may suggest that God is absent from your situation the reality is far from it. The problem is that the full panorama has yet to be seen your complete situation still hasn't been unvieled. Why has God allowed these trials to come into your life ? Its not because he is letting you down rather he is teaching you that he makes all your circumstances work together for your good even the waiting. So dont fret. Hang on to him as tightly as you can trust that he is working out something important. Because when you see what he sees, you are going to love the picture.

God, we know you wont ever let us down. Help us hang on until we can see your answer to our prayers. We know you are faithfully . Amen.

To you a thousand years is like the passing of a day or like a few hours in the night , Psalm 90:4

comfort

God has not allowed one of yr tears to drop to the ground. He caught them all and made them into something beautiful. By all that you have been through, you have been uniquely trained to comfort those who are going through the same thing. You know what it is to hurt as they hurt, fear as they fear and yearn as they yearn. You can show them how to survive and be comforted as you hv been comforted. The tears of yr biggest hurts hv been resoundingly transformed into yr most amazing opportunity for ministry. So today praise God for helping you overcome your trials and console others with the wisdom you hv received.

God, we praise you for turning our biggest defeats into our greatest victories. Thank you for yr marvelous comfort, help us to share it with others. Amen.

They who sow in tears shall reap in joy and singing. Psalm 126:5

I know who holds tomorrow

I don't know about tomorrow; 

I just live from day to day. 

I don't borrow from its sunshine 

For its skies may turn to grey. 

I don't worry o'er the future, 

For I know what Jesus said. 

And today I'll walk beside Him, 

For He knows what is ahead. 

Many things about tomorrow 

I don't seem to understand 

But I know who holds tomorrow 

And I know who holds my hand. 

Every step is getting brighter 

As the golden stairs I climb; 

Every burden's getting lighter, 

Every cloud is silver-lined. 

There the sun is always shining, 

There no tear will dim the eye; 

At the ending of the rainbow 

Where the mountains touch the sky. 

Many things about tomorrow 

I don't seem to understand 

But I know who holds tomorrow 

And I know who holds my hand. 

I don't know about tomorrow; 

It may bring me poverty. 

But the one who feeds the sparrow, 

Is the one who stands by me. 

And the path that is my portion 

May be through the flame or flood; 

But His presence goes before me 

And I'm covered with His blood. 

Many things about tomorrow 

I don't seem to understand 

But I know who holds tomorrow 

And I know who holds my hand...

I GIVE UP!

The Marriage Prayer by John Waller

Verse 1:
Father, I said till death do us part
I want to mean it with all of my heart
Help me to love You more than I love her
Then I know I can love her more
Than anyone else

Pre:
And bring her in Your presence today
Make her what You want her to be

Chorus:
I pray to hear her heart
I pray she'll love You more
I pray to cherish and serve her
And we'll bring You glory today, I pray

Verse 2 
Father, I said till death do us part
I want to mean it with all of my heart
Help me to love You more than I love him
Then I know I can love him more
Than anyone else

Pre:
And bring him in Your presence today
Make him what You want him to be


Bridge:
Lord, help me love her
As You love the church, Your bride
Help me submit to him
As I submit to You, my life

ini kalilah!ubah!

I don't consider myself a person who is strongly involve in politics. In fact, I have my own stand and expectations of how a good governance should be in the administration. From my view point as business and accounting graduate, we RAKYAT are the major shareholders of the country. Not only the present citizens but their future, their next generations are the shareholders of the country. We elect directors (government) to help us to run the country in bringing benefits to us. A good governance has to be transparent in the first place. They are accountable to each and everyone of us here as citizen the warganegara Malaysia. There are so many injustice in the country, abused of power, corruptions, crimes, and many more. As rakyat Malaysia, I have a right and everyone who is genuine warganegara Malaysia have right to change the directors and elect new one to be in office to help us for a better future. We don't want to have rubbish and dirt in this country by giving the rakyat illogical answers. I want to prevent crime to happen not to reduce crime! See the difference? If I elect you to be member of parliament, you would to implement a policy where the whole town is monitored by the CCTV and when crime happen you "tangkap dia". Are you bullshiting or what? I want to have a member of parliament to implement policy to prevent crime not wait things to happen only tangkap! Therefore, I decided to change and wanting to have a better future for the country and for the rakyat! This is only to give a peace and harmony to the country when the rakyat are living happily without worries! Well of course, no one is perfect in this world but hope for a better. I again say, I'm not hoping for a perfect but for a better! Ini kalilah!

As Christians, we’re on a first-name basis with the One who is in charge of our world (John 10:3). This truth can increase our faith. When we need help, we can send Jesus a message that begins like this: Just say the word from where You are.

I've not been writing lately due to my laziness. Today, I decided to write something before the year comes to an end in few more days. I have now attached or rather stepped my foot into the working world. It's not easy as last time due to competency and also professionalism required in my field. I was trying so hard to get a job from the field that I wanted. Here and there and no one accept me due to my results and competency. Finally I got a place in Bangsar and I'm now working as an auditor. Not so much with the position, merely an audit associate or junior in a charted accounting firm. I'm here to learn and gain as much experience as I can at this point in time. Maybe 3 years later I shall move on. I started not long ago and now I start to complain here and there. My field is BORING! I guess the rest who are in their own career also face the same thing with me because everyday do the same thing which as known as routine work. Seriously in future if I would be a father to my children, I will teach them to be contented of what they have and how much we parents work just to support the family. It's not easy to be in working life. Strength and motivation needed most of the time to sustain my mentality to carry on. Audit is a good foundation where all accounting students should lay for the first few years to gain experience. However, to build a good foundation is not easy as most people think. I'm trying my best to build the foundation so that my future road will be easy to walk. I'm not saying the road will be smooth all the way; however, with the spirit of perseverance and faith with God, everything will be possible. Whether or not I like the job is depends on how I think and look at it. I would like to conclude that life is not all about working, future and fun but ultimately, God is the source where everyone should call upon to sustain their life to gain much joy in their life and also a LIFE. 

PART ll Fundamental Liberties (Federal Constitution)

Often people forget their power and rights as a citizen in the country. They even may and may not educated (told) what rights do they have as a citizen in the country they living in. I'm writing this hopping citizens in this country aware of their rights. Reading from Part 2 Fundamental Liberties from Federal Constitution, Article 8 - Equality:

(1) All persons are equal before the law and entitled to the equal protection of the law.

(2) Except as expressly authorised by this Constitution, there shall be no discrimination against citizens on the ground only of religion, race, descent, place of birth or gender in any law or in the appointment to any office or employment under a public authority or in the administration of any law relating to the acquisition, holding or disposition of property or the establishing or carrying on of any trade, business, profession, vocation or employment.

(3) There shall be no discrimination in favour of any person on the ground that he is subject of the Ruler of any State.

(4) No public authority shall discriminate against any person on the ground that he is resident or carrying on business in any part of the Federal outside the jurisdiction of the authority.

The above writing is directly extract from the Federal Constitution, the Supreme Law in the country.

Language Barrier

I'm not a person who can speak good English. English is an international language where everyone can communicate with each other instead of speaking own dialects or country's official language. In today's competitive world, command in English is essential for everyone to communicate with same language. I've went to an interview recently for my job search, interviewer told me you have good command in English which is an advantage to me because the people that he interviewed, none of them can speak English well. I just wondering why do they still get the job or getting hired? Another instance that I want to share where the course that I'm attending right now. Presentation, presentation, presentation and presentation. Everyday presentation. From here, I realised presenters can't speak well in English and I just wonder whether they can even get a job in this competitive environment nowadays.Yes, knowledge and skills is one advantage but the language which is an essential methods to communicate to people is weak. Therefore, I took an opportunity to speak out after my presentation to motivate them not to give up on English and also their presentation skills. Of all the presentations that I've presented, comment by the trainers "good", "awesome" etc. So why am I still haven't got a job till today? This is weird isn't? I have even broaden my options to smaller firms. Still no firms want to hire me. Why is this so? I am willing to learn from bottom though I may not be competent and productive for the first few months. This doesn't mean I won't perform in the future. The key is 'willing to learn' where all firms are looking for. Yes I am willing to learn. Now my question back to the employer, "are you willing to teach and give me an opportunity to join the force?" What I need at this point in time is just a chance from the firms. If you giving me a chance, I am sure to say that I will commit and perform quickly within my abilities and my strengths. 

Taxation

Today at this time, I decided to write an article/post/argument/opinion or whatever you want to call it. It's up to you to call whatever it should be called whether article or what at the end of my post. Well I've four years knowledge of taxation from my studies. During the course of my undergraduate studies, I am well trained and taught in taxation skills. I'm not perfect after all because we human will never finish in learning things. I've decided to write this because I have my own stand of my understanding specially in my field. Often people out there say "things you learned from college/university are different from reality" well this statement not fully denied as there are principles behind in all situations. Whether or not putting it into practice is up to the responsible authorities to be accountable.

In life 2 things we definitely cannot escape. First is death. Second is taxes. Today's topic I'm not gonna talk about life or death but the second point taxation. Taxation is attributes of DIRECT and INDIRECT taxes. Both taxes are the source of revenue for the local government, state government and federal government. Quit rent and assessment will be put aside as these are not what I want to emphasize today. Now, direct taxes that we often see is income tax which is taxed by the Inland Revenue Board from the income of each individual derived. Whether it is from your salary, sales of property/land (RPGT), rights and patents, company profits, as long as an individual derived a certain amount of income, he/she/it will be taxed by the IRB according to its rate and public ruling. In short, we are being taxed from our income that we derived.

On the other hand, indirect taxes such as excise duties, stamp duties, custom duties, service taxes so on and so forth that are governed by the Royal Custom Malaysia. In layman term, duty of royal custom is to enforce law of goods that are being shipped in/out in the country and charge them duties according to its rates. Well it's true and their duty also is to ensure there is no goods being smuggler in without any permits. However, Royal Custom is an appointed agency to collect duties and taxes from goods and services that are acquired, obtained, purchased, used by the public/rakyat. In short, we are being taxed from what we spent whether a need or want.

Both Inland Revenue and Royal Custom has the same function which is collecting taxes from rakyat. The difference is only income and expenses. All in all, we as public/rakyat are being taxed from the income we derived and goods and services that we spent/enjoy. However, income taxpayers often say or maybe showing off that they are paying tax not you "YOUNGSTERS" or those who are not working. I would like to beg to differ and would like to testify and tell the WORLD that we or those who are not working are still taxpayers. Whether or not your are employee or consumer, you are being taxed! Therefore, do not proclaim that the only employed are being taxed.

Often public/rakyat ask, where the money that were taxed from us go to? Different people have different saying to the answer. Ultimately, those money being taxed will go to the budget and those money will be spent on the facilities for the public use, feeding the govt services provided, so on and so on. Which is TRUE! Inland Revenue and Royal Custom are the acting agents to the Ministry of Finance to collect those money for country's budget. On how they going to spend it, it's their wisdom on how to give back to the public. Again, I am not going to emphasize on how they going give back to the public. However, I want to emphasize that WE public/rakyat cannot escape from tax! and all of us are TAXPAYERS.

Sometimes, there will be incentives given to the public such as the recent program bantuan rakyat 1M where RM500 be given to all rakyat who needs it, graduate career accelerated program with an allowance of RM800 will be given to the participants and many more. Be my guest to take it and spend for your needs. Feel obliged to take it as those money are your money and you deserve to take it back. Many have the political mindset says you will be the opportunist and you are being marked and so on. Whether or not to vote for any party to be the government has nothing got to do with these. Take the money and go as this is a budget plan. If there are any extra, you will never know where the money will go to at the end of the day. To those who said not to take it and so on, here I am to tell you that you are giving a leeway for frauds, corruption, and so on. I am not pin pointing anyone or any party or whoever, but in terms of controls we must take charge and be responsible to ensure no hanky panky behind us. If you complain here and there without any action, then I advice you not to waste your saliva and talk so much because with your complaints without action and just for saying, it will never help any better to you or to the country or even to the rakyat.

Above all, I would wish to see all public/rakyat to wake up and open their eyes and be alert in all things are happening around us today. Whether politics, finance, racial, religious, we should be unite together and hope for a better future for our next generations. Do not lose hope and discouraged, we still have hope!

CHANGE

things surround me start to change gradually or I define it as bit by bit as I observed thus far. As I think about it, I don't want the current things change to better/worse. I just don't want to see. The feeling is like you gonna lose something. Changes can be positive and negative as for better or for worse. Either both of them I don't really want to change because I still want to be in current situation or position. I can say I'm tired and lazy for the transition period. It hurts and causes tear. Sick of changing. Can anyone tell me how? Things that I refer e.g country/politics,friendship,relationship,growth,career and a lot more. Seriously feel like giving up sometimes. Maybe I'm in this idle period, think too much unnecessary things. Perseverance and patience are the key to make me see things better and will bring me further to fit me in the transition period.

Penang trip

Travel to Penang is not a joke. 4hours plus of journey from Shah Alam and imagine the jam that you might stuck at Gopeng onwards. And this is very much depend on your luck or timing. It's tiring! Well I traveled to Penang for the first time with my new car few weeks back just to fetch my mom back. Planned to stay for few days but I went only 2days 1 night. If you plan to go to Penang do stay a little longer "like duh". Food there are just awesome where you will never get it in KL.

Stayed at 5th aunt's place University Heights. ----> opposite is the University Sains Malaysia. View there is not bad. This mini trip didn't go well as I suppose to meet my friend for some DIM SUM in the morning. Guess what? Heavy rain in the middle of night and road leads to town was so jam cause P.Ramlee off Sungai Perak flooded. 9.30 appointment 11am reach town. I just say hi and bye to my friend. This is damn sad. Thought will have a wonderful catch up time together and jalan jalan and this turned to disaster.