A sudden thoughts

Things have changed over the past few months and time passed quickly just in the blink of an eye. I couldn't say much yet time has really taught me numerous and valuable insights. I fell and I got up just like a toddler learns how to walk. I can only thank God for all His grace and His mercy upon me each and every single day. I'm sure He allows bad things happen so that we human could cling on Him and depend on Him and believe that He is in control of everything. Well again is human's choice whether or not to believe. The old has past and new has come. I have already moved on but there's still a scar that I will never forget.

Here comes a new hope, which I wish can be blossomed and things could change 180 degree. A commitment where I need to take it very seriously for life. It may be too early to say or declare anything but am positive about it yet I hope is not a wrong boat/signal or whatever you call it. I would not miss the opportunity that God has given to me. Age and status does not matter to me but what matters to me is the other side of what other people would think? Often hear not to take into your heart whatever other people would say. Prolong doubts may causes both parties to hurt and get unnecessary thought. To clear the doubt is to be certain though we have always hear that life is uncertain and risks incur one or another. That is why, risk assessment and preparation and measurement must be carefully taken up before or even during the cause of doing any thing or in decision making.

Making a business decision may not as hard as making a life long decision. It all draws to God's will at the end of the day I would say. Now what is God's will? We often think that we need to have great faith to pray. I would say not really as my understanding and logic mindset that God can do everything and anything because He is Almighty. It is not whether God can or cannot, in fact He can! It is just whether He will do it or not is another story. Therefore, we need to have faith that God is able to bring you from one end to another end without you knowing. Yet it included some ingredients such as sadness, toughness, happiness, challenges, obstacles etc. With all these ingredients added into a raw meat, it gives a nice and tasty cooked meat at the end of the day. 

how often do we really ponder and reflect back the love of God is greater far than tongue or pen could ever described? To write the love of God above it would even drain the ocean dry!

LOVE should get stronger by the day. LOVE only fades when you're trying to hold on to someone you shouldn't have given your heart to. Don't give LOVE a bad name just because you tried to LOVE the wrong person. - Tony Gaskins.

Well written! (Y)

Find this very true..Indeed we should check out "who am I " in the first place..Let go..Let God!

However, when these difficulties come, our tendency is to pray for deliverance instead of growth. We ask the Lord. "How can I get out of this?" instead of "What can I get out of this?" When we do that, we miss the opportunities God gives us to develop spiritual maturity. - Warren Wierbe

The cost of discipleship is exacting! Sometimes my direction got sidetracked which hinders me serving Christ. The fundamental question to ask is, "who is the true master of my life?" I often emphasize this particular question to re-align my life.

When I was doing my reading and reflection, I found this very insightful whereby "we must return to embrace a life hidden in Christ. A half-hearted allegiance will not bear the fruit of a lasting commitment. The deeper life involves giving total allegiance to Him. Jesus gave His all, holding nothing back. Hence, we should do the same".

This is a journey instead of a 100 meters race. We bound to have challenges and spiritual burn-out. Let us not stop there but to press on toward the goal.

We try to be our own masters as if we had created ourselves. Then we hopelessly strive to invent some sort of happiness for ourselves outside of God, apart from God. And out of that hopeless attempt has come human history...the long, terrible story of man trying to find something other than God which will make him happy. - C.S. Lewis

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Work-in-progress: roots be deepened and may my faith wings take flight!

Hi..hi..Lengzai bring you great joy from the North Region, Penang Island! Had a pleasant trip though for just 2 days 1 night only. Meeting up with people and spent time catching up with each other are just great! 

I'm still gathering my thoughts in writing them down before giving you to read. My day was kinda moody and in deep thinking of so many things. Well give me sometime to write them down okay?

good night Felicia.. <3 p="">

When God made you - Natalie Grant

It's always been a mystery to me
How to hearts can come together
And love can last forever
But now that I have found you, I believe
That a miracle has come
When God sends the perfect one
Now gone are all my questions about why
And I've never been so sure of anything in my life

I wonder what God was thinking
When He created you
I wonder if He knew everything I would need
Because He made all my dreams come true
When God made you
He must have been thinking about me

I promise that wherever you may go
Wherever life may lead you
Weill all my heart I'll be there too
From this moment on I want you to know
I'll let nothing come between us
And I will love the ones you love

He made the sun, He made the moon
To harmonize in perfect tune
One can't move without the other
They just have to be together
And that is why I know it's true
You're for me and I'm for you
Cause my world just can't be right
Without you in my life

He must have heard every prayer I've been praying
Yes He knew everything I would need
When God made you
When dreams come true
When God made you
He must have been thinking about me

According to This Momentary Marriage by John Piper, marriage is not mainly about prospering economically e.g. having joint income, joint mortgage loan etc; it is mainly about displaying the covenant-keeping love between Christ and His church. Knowing Christ is more important than making a living. Treasuring Christ is more important than bearing children. However, being pregnant and conceive a child is God's gift to us to all mankind as God has spoken in Genesis 1:28 "...Be fruitful and multiply.. Being united to Christ by faith is a greater source of marital success than per-fect sex and double-income prosperity.

If we make secondary things primary, they cease to be secondary and become idolatrous. They have their place. This is why we often lose focus where it has hindered us in putting God first.

So it is with marriage. It is a momentary gift. It may last a lifetime, or it may be snatched away on the honeymoon. Either way, it is short. If we make secondary things primary, we will be embittered at the sorrows we must face. But if we set our face to make of marriage mainly what Good designed it to be, no sorrows and no calamities can stand in our way. Everyone of them will be, not an obstacles to success, but a way to succeed. The beauty of the covenant-keeping love between Christ and His church shines brightest when nothing but Christ can sustain it.  

I truly agree with what the author said, on top of that, I would like share an illustration or an analogy whereby if both parties walk to be closer with God, then both of them will automatically begin to grow closer to one another and this would be a fulfilling and meaningful one. Remember there were couple of verses taken from Ecclesiastes 4:9-12 saying that "two are better than one, because they have good return for their work. If one falls down, the other can help the other up. But pity anyone who falls and has no one to help him/her up. Also if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how one keep warm alone? Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken". The three strands here meaning being two people and God. Hence if God is at the focal point of your relationship, and you and the other are both moving toward God, consequently both will grow much closer to each other. Isn't it lovely? 

"And over all those virtues put on LOVE which binds them all together in perfect unit". Colossians 3:14

So I was admitted to the hospital due to dengue fever for 6 days. First day in hospital was kinda active walking here and there like a vacation and I even treat it as camp. Didn't know Nelson was admitted as well in the same hospital with same sickness. So was walking here and there in the ward with visitors. The end of the day requested to change room. The second day  was kinda awful, energy all drained, got tired easily. The food was horrible too! I'm thankful to have friends that brought me outside food to filll my stomach. Everyday I was waiting for the blood test result in hopping my platelets count to be stable so that I'm able to discharge without any restrictions. Unfortunately, my blood count drop..drop..and drop.. Not as severe as Nelson till 64. In conclusion, it's not fun at all to stay in hospital. Why? Bored..expensive bill..tiring.. So had good rest at home after discharge from hospital before I get back to work. 

She is one of my dinner mates after my work on Friday night. We had great time together during the dinner table and have been encouraging each other not only in moral support but in spiritual support as well. Time past so quickly that she has to leave Kuala Lumpur and back to Penang. As she is still in the midst of waiting the outcome of the universities offer in Australia and making decision whether or not to stay back in Malaysia to continue her studies, I pray that God to show and lead her the way in according to His will on which university to be enrolled. Ai Lyn..may the Lord continue to show you the path and guide you in all things you do.  May you also to continue to seek His will in all things you do! Take care and God bless! =)

Care group outing to Sg. Lembing was the great one that I ever had. We were able to see God's wonderful creation in this place. How on earth that someone could say all these were created through big bang? They just deny the existence of God. Took one day off just to see these beautiful scenery was well worth! We should do it at least once a year. Reached the cottage almost 11pm. Slept early and got ourselves ready for the journey to see the rainbow waterfall. Tourists commented this place is a beautiful place where we are able to see multiple rainbow at once. We took a 4 wheel to transport us to one point and hike up to the waterfall. Reached the waterfall after a hike at approx 45mins. We could only see one rainbow instead multiple when we reached. Somehow I managed to see two rainbows at the same time and I was in between the rainbow. I see true colours! 

This reminds me Genesis 9:13-17 and it says I have set my rainbow in the clouds, and it will be the sign of the covenant between me and the earth. Whenever I bring clouds over the earth and the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will remember my covenant between me and you and all living creatures of every kind. Never again will the waters become a flood to destroy all life. Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth.” So God said to Noah, “This is the sign of the covenant I have established between me and all life on the earth.”

As it is written, rainbow is symbolise covenant that made between God and mankind. We often doubt God's power. For example, we prayed so hard for the coming exam and study so hard for it. Result coming out in a week or so.. We start to doubt, whether or not God will give us As' or even pass the exam? So where is our faith since we have prayed and trust God will make the ways. Basically this is our human tendency to doubt. It's actually a choice for us to make whether to have faith or not. In fact, we should have faith in Him at all time. He will never fail us, he will never leave you nor forsake you. Be humble and come near to Him and He will come near to you. Be humble before the Lord and He will lift you up! Remember that God Himself through Jesus Christ has fulfilled all the prophecies in the old testament. It's a promise that God will not one anyone to be perished but to have eternal life. The great promise has fulfilled why not our little tiny requests? Wait.. This does not mean that everything we ask God will give. He will only provide to those who ask according to His will. So what is His will? We can't add to God's glory and He doesn't need us. That all is given too us and it is up to Him if want to initiate something in our lives. So when we say, God we want to do Your will. Do you think we are doing something that pleases God? We need to be careful that it is not thinking that God needs us to carry out His plans. In fact, God is the one who initiates the move and speak to us when he wants to use us. Indeed what we should do is to be humble and let Him speaks and works in us. Are we humble enough? Are we there to be still and listen to what He want to say to us? All in all, He is the hope of all the earth, and all of us are rest assure in His great love!

Isn't this picture on the left nice? Coincidently took it with my random shot. How nice to bring another half to be there right? I always thinking of you wherever I go especially these nice and beautiful God's creation. The song by Trademark has this to say, but I believe for you and me, the sun will shine one day. So I'll just play my part and pray you'll have a change of heart. Yes, I write this and I meant it. The early morning of the last day of trip, we went for a climb to panorama hill called 林明山. Thought it was an easy trail and it wasn't. Climb for less than 10 minutes my foot wanted to give up. If I give up easily means I am a looser and have achieve nothing. Therefore, I put myself up and encourage myself that I should not give up easily same as to life and all situations. Perseverance is always the key to success and of course with God's power and strength. Well I made it and to the peak I have conquered in climbing the hill though with many stops and rest. It's truly worth it that through out the whole trip, I learned a lot. You think my chapter just end here? I can tell you that this is only a beginning. 

Have not been updating my blog for quite some time. A blink of eye, one year has coming to an end, where I have been working for almost a year. I was busy with my work since June until mid of August due to peak season of my auditing field. I learned a lot from this peak where I am able to see full picture on the process of auditing. Well, if you would to ask me whether is it time for me to move on to another firm or to another specialisation which is taxation. My answer is not at the moment and will start planning after my second peak so that I am able to learn more such as amalgamation accounts and consolidated accounts. In this field, people come-people go, and this is a norm. Relationship with colleague is just like a nightmare! Why? There is a person who really can't stop to win the conversation, ability, power, knowledge, skills and etc. All said and mentioned are bull and don't make any sense to me. Seriously, God has never fail to put person I dislike for me to dealt with so that I can learn to love thy neighbour as yourself and to love because He first love me. Well, guess I have to bear with this matter and learn to be patience and gentle and create peace.

Does the picture relate to the above writing? No, but I would like to take this opportunity to thank Felicia and AiLyn for getting me this note book as my birthday present. They have been my support in my hunger for God's words. Learnt a lot from them in many aspects and I am looking forward to learn more and to change myself to be a Christian who is able to shine for His glory!

Move on, I am taking Governance, Risk and Ethics P1 this coming December. Been doing my reading and hope can pass this paper without any complications.

What have I learned from the past few months? I would to say in life, whether christian or non-christian, we should stop whining and hold on to gratitude you will be more happy and less stress. Stop grumbling and start to calm yourself down to make peace to one another. Life would be much easier and happier.

p/s: all glory and praise unto to the Lord!

For the past few months, I've been spending my time with her for meals, shopping and etc. In fact, where every moment I spent with her is a moment I really treasure in my life. Since then, I have decided to start praying to God and ask Him for direction whether she is the right one for me. It took me a long time and huge courage to tell her I love her and ask would she be my girl. I have not done this before in my life facing a girl that I really love and to tell her my feeling towards her. Yes. I've done my part and the rest I left it to God to decide. This time I was really serious about this relationship where I asked her to pray together with me and ask God for direction and consider me with His wisdom whether we both are meant to be together in terms of sharing our lives together, to be the other half of life.

OK..I FAILED AGAIN!

My feelings, emotion, life turned upside-down. I was asking why why why and why...I was wishing she will be my girl that I am looking for. In fact, the answer was NO. It took me few days or a week to recover from my bitterness. Though I may not be the one. I will continue to look after her and will be there anytime to provide her needs and care. I would to be the backstage support or other people may call it "guardian angel" to protect her as long as I could. Will not hope for anything to happen but may God's will be done. If we are meant to be together then we will no matter how,what and when.

p/s: seriously the every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure!

Comfort #2

God has not failed you. Through every human indicator may suggest that God is absent from your situation the reality is far from it. The problem is that the full panorama has yet to be seen your complete situation still hasn't been unvieled. Why has God allowed these trials to come into your life ? Its not because he is letting you down rather he is teaching you that he makes all your circumstances work together for your good even the waiting. So dont fret. Hang on to him as tightly as you can trust that he is working out something important. Because when you see what he sees, you are going to love the picture.

God, we know you wont ever let us down. Help us hang on until we can see your answer to our prayers. We know you are faithfully . Amen.

To you a thousand years is like the passing of a day or like a few hours in the night , Psalm 90:4

comfort

God has not allowed one of yr tears to drop to the ground. He caught them all and made them into something beautiful. By all that you have been through, you have been uniquely trained to comfort those who are going through the same thing. You know what it is to hurt as they hurt, fear as they fear and yearn as they yearn. You can show them how to survive and be comforted as you hv been comforted. The tears of yr biggest hurts hv been resoundingly transformed into yr most amazing opportunity for ministry. So today praise God for helping you overcome your trials and console others with the wisdom you hv received.

God, we praise you for turning our biggest defeats into our greatest victories. Thank you for yr marvelous comfort, help us to share it with others. Amen.

They who sow in tears shall reap in joy and singing. Psalm 126:5

I know who holds tomorrow

I don't know about tomorrow; 

I just live from day to day. 

I don't borrow from its sunshine 

For its skies may turn to grey. 

I don't worry o'er the future, 

For I know what Jesus said. 

And today I'll walk beside Him, 

For He knows what is ahead. 

Many things about tomorrow 

I don't seem to understand 

But I know who holds tomorrow 

And I know who holds my hand. 

Every step is getting brighter 

As the golden stairs I climb; 

Every burden's getting lighter, 

Every cloud is silver-lined. 

There the sun is always shining, 

There no tear will dim the eye; 

At the ending of the rainbow 

Where the mountains touch the sky. 

Many things about tomorrow 

I don't seem to understand 

But I know who holds tomorrow 

And I know who holds my hand. 

I don't know about tomorrow; 

It may bring me poverty. 

But the one who feeds the sparrow, 

Is the one who stands by me. 

And the path that is my portion 

May be through the flame or flood; 

But His presence goes before me 

And I'm covered with His blood. 

Many things about tomorrow 

I don't seem to understand 

But I know who holds tomorrow 

And I know who holds my hand...

I GIVE UP!